330am vs Jude
“Get outta my head I thought. But it was in my chest and in my gut. I mistook it for anxiety”
Leave me. You do not belong here. This isn’t your home. It’s not in your nature. I need to be set free. Thoughts creeping but my strengths push back successfully. I can’t and won’t be tamed. I will not be your vessel. I will not be your temple. I am not your muse or your infatuation. It’s as if you’ve got a grip on me, but be careful, I won’t take the blame for the destruction you bring me. It’s too late. I already know that you’re weak. Good, go cry and be sad for the rest of your life. Maybe one day you realize it wasn’t worth it to be selfish and so focused on the opposite of love which is evil.
“A girls note to the souls enemy”
‘J.Law’✨
730pm Already?
I feel like crying. My alcohol buzz keeps subsiding, im trying to keep it up and keep smiling. I have ideas, plans, things that truly have me excited, but those voices in my head they won’t keep quiet.
10pm.
Are you sleeping?
Are you thinking of me?
Are your dreams filled with images of me?
In the day,
Can you hear me whispering “hey”?
Do you smell my scent?
as you sit, waiting for your dinner with your happy little family?
Does her lips feel like mine when you kiss?
Does she ever so slightly bit it like you like, like me?
How do you manage through your day now that I’ve gone away?
Things wasn’t supposed to go this way,but somewhere within all our negativity we got sidetracked and let things get in the way.
If I had the chance,
if I had one wish;
it would be to live one day in endless bliss.
630 Lasted Forever.
Touch.
The touching of the skin
The inside screams being drowned out by the loud moaning.
Tears mixed with makeup smearing
The white sheets soaked with it now.
Touch.
His touch
I was lost so I let him have his way
I didn’t say no, so it doesn’t matter anyway.
Touch
Being touched, I never liked it anyway
But the word “try me” must be craved into my face.
He said he be back around 8
I go fix the makeup on my face.
VainBeauty Limited 